im not a fan of school at all.
it's so fucking stressful!
but friday is the halloween dance and im so excited!
finally something that doesn't involve studying.
the other bad thing about school is being away from my mom.
i worry so much that she is going to die. i know that me being there can't save her but
it makes me feel like i could try. im not sure what i would do without her.
 

btw..the best feeling in the world is being with you and
having you tell me i'm going to pass lol
i dont ever want this to end<3

i really miss the hospital, i pretty much grew up there.
i hate feeling alone and ever since i went
to school thats how i feel, honestly i don't like school, well le moyne anyways
it's not what i thought it would be. i miss being places and doing things i knew.
i knew the hospital, i knew the people. i loved it there. i just want to get school
out of the way and start living. i want to be happy again.

well this fucking sucks,
it feels like when me and sam were "me and sam"
and i'm not a fan at all.

so umm im thinking about just giving up.

so i opened my fortune cookie on facebook and it said... an exotic journey in downtown newark is in your future,
well after having colin say what he did to me, im kinda creeped out.. hahhaha

this is so fucking annyoing!!

anyways i dont care if zach isnt excited but im carving pumpkins this weekend!
i love doing things that make me feel like a kid, it's such a good feeling.
last year me and sam carved pumpkins and mine came out badass haha



oh and fall break is this weekend so miss mariah plan on hanging out this weekend lady!

GratefulGroove13 (12:42:54 PM): Aren't you that girl I nailed in the bum in that gas station in Newark last month?!

i'm so glad i don't associate myself with these kind of people anymore.
(btw, no i was not that girl)

uugghh...sometimes i should just not tell people things..

anyways i just sat in the freezing cold watching a stupid soccer game.
i'm probably going to get sick now..

"i can't read because they are banging again" hahaha
oh how i love college,

the bad thing about college is that i only get to see zach on the weekends,
but...i'm ganna talk him into going to su next year, it wont happen but it's worth a try haha

oh and aelx .well he is still the love of my life...

i'm stressing out about patient contact hours, i need 750.
but not everything counts, so im ganna try to get into suny eoc and get emt and/or cna certified.
that way i can get hours and get paid for them.
i hope that works out or im not sure whats going to happen.
if i doesn't work out i might be applying for a job with mental health, but i'd rather stick with an emt.